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47 Days

Tracy will leave Sunnybrook tomorrow to begin rehab at The Lyndhurst Centre of Toronto Rehab. It was 47 days ago that fateful night that I was informed she would likely spend several months at Sunnybrook, and that we should prepare for a long stay in critical care, intensive care and the neuro ward. If you recall several posts ago when Tracy was having difficulty being removed from the breathing machine so she could have the tracheotomy, I said to her “…this is your new race Trace, I know it’s not the one you wanted but it’s the one you’ve got to win now…” , and she did just that. She was breathing on her own not long afterwards, and has been eating solid foods for over a week now. This tenacity is why she is going to Lyndhurst tomorrow!

Princess and the Pea

Tracy has been on an air bed since she moved into the C5 neuro ward a couple of weeks ago. The bed is designed to help prevent bed sores. While it has been very beneficial to have her on this bed, it has come with some trials and tribulations. Recently Tracy has been very sensitive and experiencing autonomic dysreflexia. Autonomic dysreflexia is a condition that develops after spinal cord injury in which potentially life-threatening episodic hypertension is triggered by stimulation of sensory nerves in the body below the site of injury. Her feet, feet, legs and hands are all hypersensitive. The neurosurgeon has been in to speak to Tracy about what is happening to her, as she has been very uncomfortable with these sensations. She can “feel” bumps and lumps underneath and around her – some that are real and some that are not. Her feet and hands are starting to contract and her muscles are tightening. “The Princess on the Pea” is a fairy tale by Hans Christian Andersen about a young woman whose royal identity is established by a test of her physical sensitivity. The Queen wanted to test the princess.  They knew that she was a real princess because she had felt the pea right through the twenty mattresses and the twenty eider-down beds beneath her.

Our Tracy is the Princess at Sunnybrook.

Thank You

Thank you to all those who “rode for Tracy” this morning in Collingwood. A special note of gratitude to Alan Lo for organizing.

  1. VISIT: Visiting hours Monday to Friday 4pm to 9pm and weekends 11am to 9pm. She will really need visitors on weekends at Lyndhurst. Send an Email with “Visit Tracy”in the subject line
  2. WRITE – the old fashioned way – to Tracy. She doesn’t get to read your posts. Send cards, notes and pictures to ATTN: Tracy Kyne, 121 RANLEIGH AVE, TORONTO ON M4N 1X2
  3. GIVE –You can donate online with PayPal or visit any CIBC branch and tell them you’d like to make a donation in Trust for Tracy Dort Kyne to this account: #00002 / 60-47599.
  4. FUNDRAISER: BREATHE & MOVE for TRACY – Sunday October 23rd – 10:00 am (90 mins) Moksha Yoga Uptown To register email: Holly hchapman@astral.com
  5. FUNDRAISER: Group Fitness at the DUNFIELD Club – Friday November 4th – 3 group fitness classes – stay tuned for more details.
Find the joy in each day!

 

Happy Thanksgiving

  1. Please bookmark www.tracydortkyne.com as we’ll be posting future updates here.
  2. TRACY wants VISITORS!! – Send an Email with “Visit Tracy”in the subject line to schedule a visit to see Tracy in the hospital – include a few days and times that work for you. Tracy is enjoying all her visits. Let’s keep ‘em coming! It’s great for her spirits.
  3. WRITE – the old fashioned way – to Tracy. She doesn’t get to read your posts. Send cards, notes and pictures to ATTN: Tracy Kyne c/o Lynn Pang, 121 RANLEIGH AVE, TORONTO ON M4N 1X2
  4. GIVE –You can donate online with PayPal or visit any CIBC branch and tell them you’d like to make a donation in Trust for Tracy Dort Kyne to this account: #00002 / 60-47599.
  5. FUNDRAISING RIDE for TRACY – Sunday October 16th – 9:00am- Meet at Fisher Field in Collingwood – For more info: Alan Lo cyclefitoakville@hotmail.com
  6. FUNDRAISING BREATHE & MOVE for TRACY – Sunday October 23rd – 10:00 am (90 mins) Moksha Yoga Uptown To register email: Holly hchapman@astral.com

SOooo MUCH GRATITUDE – THANK YOU to everyone at TRACK Fitness and all the amazing “spinners” for raising almost $10,000 for Tracy on Thursday night!!! Truly remarkable!

5 STAGES – I want to explain why I haven’t written for a while, and my incredible husband Robert has been keeping you updated with his posts. The truth is that I was angry. I know – How selfish of me, right? But, one of my good friends reminded me the other day that Tracy and our whole family will experience the “Five Stages of Grief” – and likely not at all at the same time. According Kubler Ross these 5 stages are: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.

Indeed my friend was right. We are all grieving the loss of the life Tracy had, and the life we had. The active mother, daughter, friend, sister, workout fanatic that she used to be! Why was I angry?

ANGRY – I was angry because I didn’t understand why she had to train for such a big race on a road that is a mountain. I was angry because our family is exhausted. I was angry because I didn’t feel she was appreciative. I was angry because I felt that she put her fitness first. I was angry because she left us sorting out and organizing many of her affairs. I was angry because hers was not a simple straightforward life. I was angry because the boys have already been through so much and don’t deserve any more traumas. I was angry because (…and this part I’m embarrassed to admit…) my life is not my own anymore, and never will be – and every minute of every day we are all thinking about Tracy’s care, Tracy’s kids, Tracy’s needs and Tracy’s future.

MOM – And then my Mom hit the wall and was sick late last week, and my selfish anger started to fade away as I realized how very lucky I am, and how much more I needed to step up. In a quiet moment – I reflected about it – not from my selfish angry sister perspective – but from a Mom’s perspective. What would it be like for me if it was my Abby lying in that hospital bed with no way to scratch her nose? No way to brush her own teeth? No way to brush her hair? No way to ever hug again? No way to write her own name? No way to lift a cup of water? ….no way … no way …NO WAY…. !!!! I couldn’t even think about it!!

So, I took over the early morning shift that Mom’s been doing all along, and spent Saturday morning with Tracy for her wake up routine. She was cranky and in pain, but she guided myself and the nurse through her morning rituals – brush her hair, move her up, move her over, adjust her pillow (but please take off your gloves! – the silicone gloves catch and pull her hair, and not all the nurses are obliging of this request if you can believe it!!?), wash her face, give her meds, brush her teeth, give her water (one that’s cold to swish, one that’s room temp to drink because it hurts too much to swallow when it’s icy cold), move her feet over etc etc.. We worked together and as I did all this, my anger was washed away by compassion.

TIME TO EAT – On this Thanksgiving Sunday ….just imagine not having eaten or chewed food in over a month!? Tracy’s first full official day with a “regular menu” was yesterday – so, as one would expect on Saturday morning she didn’t have much of an appetite and we had to take the tray away. But later that day she had a bit of soup for lunch, and then for dinner a little of Lynn’s homemade lemon chicken. Yay! Except today is not a good day and she’s not terribly interested in eating today. Let’s hope tomorrow is a better day!

As you share prayers of gratitude this Thanksgiving weekend, please do give praise for the food, but also remember to give praise for the smaller things – the things we all take for granted – the ability to – raise a fork to your mouth, wipe your lips with a napkin, bring yourself to the table, set the table, lick your fingers with pie on them, hold hands in prayer, pick up the dishes to clear the table ….

Every day we learn a new lesson. It’s what we do with it that changes us!

Much love and a huge amount of appreciation!

Les xo

It’s been 3 weeks since Tracy had her accident

Before I share my latest visit stories with you, I have a note from my parents Mack and Joan Dort.

NOTE FROM MY PARENTS MACK AND JOAN:

Thank you! We are so grateful for all of your posts, notes, emails and prayers. They have meant so much to us. After a long day with the boys, or in the hospital with Tracy, or for Dad alone in Ottawa working – being able to sit down and read comforting, kind and reassuring words from friends and family helps us to get through each day. God bless!

REMINDERS:

1.      WRITE – the old fashioned way – to Tracy. She doesn’t get to read your Caringbridge or Facebook posts. Send cards, notes and pictures to ATTN: Tracy Kyne c/o Lynn Pang, 121 RANLEIGH AVE, TORONTO ON  M4N 1X2

2.      GIVE  –You can donate online with PayPal or visit any CIBC branch and tell them you’d like to make a donation in Trust for Tracy Dort-Kyne to this account: #00002 / 60-47599.

3.      VISIT – Email Lynn at lynn@panger.ca with VISIT TRACY in the subject line to schedule a visit to see Tracy in the hospital – include a few days and times that work for you. And remember it’s a “working visit”.

TRACY’s Friday Adventure

On Friday afternoon when we got to the hospital the nurse asked Abby and I to leave because they were going to move Tracy from her bed to the “chair”, and then we could take her for a walk – outside! Again! She had done it the day before with her friend Bette. We were excited, even though it was a rainy day.

When we went back in after they moved her, the nurse was adjusting the oxygen tank on the back of the chair. I started assessing the “chair” and decided it was to be renamed the “Little House on the Prairie” wheelchair. Picture it. A very high back with HUGE wheels – like wagon wheels, no sides or arm rests to speak of. But! We didn’t care we were going outside!

The nurse started wheeling Tracy down the hall only to discover that the wheels on this chair were like a bad IKEA shopping cart, left was right and right was left. We bumped and grinded down the halls – giggling along the way, to the elevator and eventually outside. Our nurse was sweet but timid, so Tracy wanted me to let her know she is “adventurous” and to “go for it”.  And that we did. We stopped and Tracy sat for a few minutes looking up at the cloudy sky, she said “wow, they are moving so fast”.

We turned around to go back in and realized a little too late that we were going a little fast! Oops!…. and poor sweet Tracy started to topple sideways out of the chair (remember no arms or sides…J.) Abby rescued her and we adjusted her back into her chair. She took it all in stride with a smile on her face while we profusely apologized.

It was in that moment – of her falling sideways – that “it” really hit me!

MOVING TO B5!!!

We learned today that after a roller coaster ride in CCU, tomorrow Tracy will be moved to B5. All the docs and nurses are amazed at how quickly she has progressed!  YAY Tracy!

God bless,

Lesley